Peace

  It seems like I've been going from one activity to another whether it's family related, school related, or friend related. Let me sum up very briefly. (I'll skip over the stress-filled ex husband flustrations (yes, I know I made up my own word... I like it. I'm flustered, I'm frustred (yeah another made up word) so I'm flustrated!)

My best friend came home to visit from England. Thanks to a rather unfortunate accident her hubby broke his leg and dislocating his ankle, causing them to stay for an unintended long holiday. (No complaining here it was fabulous to see her and watch our kids play together!)


My grandma has not been doing well. She's been in and out of the hospital since she had hernia surgery 2 or 3 weeks ago (really it's getting kind of fuzzy now). My family held an annointing serivce for her at the hospital Saturday night. It's a beautiful, quiet ceromony that revives my faith everytime I'm a part of one. During the service my grandpa (also my pastor) asked Grandma if she had anything she wanted to say to our family. Her simple statement was "keep the faith."  I think she's tired of fighting (as is her body), she's been fighting for 10 blessed years now (I'll blog about the events 10 years ago later)..... Everything's in God's hands now; "Thy will be done."

As for me personally, nothing has been going on. No nibblets, not even much flirtation.  I wish I had someone to lean on, cry to, to hold me.  4 years ago right before Christmas my great grandmother past away not 20 feet from where I am sitting. My family and I surrounded her and sang hymns as she drew her last breath and passed away in her childhood home as she had always wanted.  I made it through that time with the support of my wonderful family. At the time I was also married with a baby.  I'm not saying that I miss being married to my ex (no way in Hell, best thing that ever happened to me was the day he filed for divorce, though it took me a while to realize it).  I do miss the comfort of having someone to sleep beside, to hold me at my low times to comfort me.  But apparently it is not meant to be this time.  So I'll resort to leaning on my friends (in more ways than one!) and family, and muster up the strength to continue on.
This is going to be a hard month I'm afraid.

Country Girl seeking Peace.....